Lyrics

Church lied to us about God
Boxed him in their four walls
Filtered pure scripture
Through a faulted and self serving cistern
Created by a generation trapped in a persona
No reflection
Created a me inside of me that could never be honest
Used shame and guilt to keep me in bondage
Searched out my faults till I was sinless
But could never get all the sin out
Silenced my questions
Demanded obedience and repentance
In an exchange for a conditional love
That left me empty and codependent
Sex shamed me into repression
Til my pussy started telling the truth
And the dirt under the pews started growing mountains
That were hard to ignore

So I walked out
Found God in the wilderness
Unboxed
Untouched by human thought
Wrapped me in an unconditional love that felt right
Felt free
The kind they talked about but never displayed
Suddenly there was enough space
For my questions
My fears
My tears
And I could be honest
Like really honest
And I cried
For all the days I couldn't
For all of those who died in those pews
Without ever being loved properly
Ever being free
Ever being seen
I cried for my sister
And all the lies she will take to her grave
And I ain't had much to say since then
Or step foot in a church
But baby I know freedom
Found truth in all the gray areas
Felt the Son warm the back of my neck
And whisper me into submission
Convinced me to lift my head
And open my eyes
And here I am
Lifting my head
Lifting my hands
And opening my eyes